It’s been quite a while since I last blogged, a 2 1/2 months long while to be precise and one might have been wondering “is she even still blogging?” and YES I AM. I’m just…. waiting to feel like writing blog posts again…still. I’m trying though, slowly.
This long break wasn’t planned at all, it just happened. I even missed my 6 year anniversary in May which is kind of sad because I also had an idea for a big-ish giveaway but I guess I’ll just keep that in my mind for another time. SIX YEARS THOUGH. I’m always joking how I definitely want to make it to at least 10 years but now that I’m in the second half, it doesn’t even seem that unlikely anymore. I definitely don’t intend to quit anytime soon, even if it doesn’t seem like that right now.
I’m actually somewhat proud of myself for still blogging after over 6 years, especially considering that quite a few of the blogs that I read when I started are gone by now. Maybe not the best timing to talk about how to keep motivated to blog but this is why and how I kept going over all these years:
Remember that 2 1/2 months of not blogging? Yeah, I didn’t really care besides that it made me sad that I didn’t feel like doing it (I was actually missing it in some way). I definitely didn’t feel bad about not blogging, I didn’t feel like I have a job that I’m not doing, that I’m dodging responsibilities. The only thing I ever feel bad about is that when I don’t blog, I also don’t read other blogs. (I don’t know why these are connected but it’s what always happens) So even when I didn’t feel like blogging for quite a long time, I never felt like quitting because I don’t feel bad about taking a break and not blogging when I don’t want to. Coming back to it is a lot easier when I’m not constantly telling myself that I should get back to it. I just do when I suddenly feel like it again.
Maybe when you don’t have a pile of physicals ARCs sitting around that constantly reminds you that you have lots of books you “should” be reading and reviewing, it’s easier, but I have always treated blogging as a hobby and nothing more. I don’t stress myself over reviews of books that I got via edelweiss or netgalley, books that have been out already or are about to come out. I review them when I feel like it. I write blog posts when I feel like it. Blogging is supposed to be fun, but fun is pretty quick to leave me behind when there is any “have to” involved, so I don’t think that way about blogging and keep it being fun.
I’m not actively reminding myself of this constantly, but I often catch myself thinking something along the lines “you wouldn’t be in this place right now, if you hadn’t started blogging”. Most important to me are the friendships, and even though I don’t really need my blog to keep those up, I know it’s what put me in the right spot to make these friends and this will always motivate me to keep my blog going, to keep this thing alive.
It’s also the little things though. Like I love seeing my review archive grow. It’s kind of silly, but seeing that list grow? Motivates me a whole lot to write even more.
I guess after this long break, I just needed to write down these thoughts and remind myself why I’m still doing this and I hope to break out of this slump soon because I REALLY miss blogging. I have so many ideas and so many books I WANT to review, it’s just my fingers that don’t seem to cooperate and make me lose my motivation as soon as I touch a keyboard.
How long have you been blogging? Did you have a longer break too? how did you break out of that slump then?